Love Day ^.^*

I'm very curious, I'm curious about everything

Why can't I go to sleep and can only see your face?

I'm curious too, I'm curious about this heart

Why is it that when I see you, laughter comes out first?

When my friends are together and they mention you

Why do I get so excited and want to hear more?

If only you are there, I become someone else

And I make random, awkward jokes

Honestly, this feeling is so strange

Is this what it feels like to be on top of a cloud?

Is it like this, are we like this?

If you feel the same way, have we already started?

I like you very very much

I think I came to love you

I want to say the same thing

But is it okay if I do that?

Should I wait a bit more?

I also like you very very much

Honestly, this is the first time I'm feeling like this

I will wait more

will you wait more?

I will be here 

will you be here?

We are already feeling the same way

What do you like about me? That's what I'm curious about

Since when did I live in your heart?

I'm curious too, I'm curious about your heart

Whether you really like me and not hate me?

There are so many pretty girls

No, No!

So is it true that you really only see me?

Many handsome guys

Who?

are by your side

Where?

So how are you coming to me girl?

Honestly, I keep imagining us

This kind of feeling is so suspicious

Underneath the same sky

Underneath the same sky

We're thinking the same thoughts

I think we can say the same things too

I like you very very much

I think I came to love you

I want to say the same thing

But is it okay if I do that?

Should I wait a bit more?

I also like you very very much

Honestly, this is the first time I'm feeling like this

I will wait more

will you wait more?

I will be here 

will you be here?

We are already feeling the same way

Who likes who more? Do I like you more?

That's not important to me

If I extend my hand, will you never let go?

I won't let go of your hand forever

I like you very very much

Honestly, I already love you

I can say the same thing but,

Why do I keep shaking? Why am I keep hesitating?

No I love you, You!

Now I will tell you everything of my heart

Will you believe in me

I'll believe in you

In my love

In this love

Let's walk together side by side

The two of us

Happy for you, the best friend of mine. 

Do really happy when I met you. Even it's just for a few of seconds..
Do really proud saw you in those kind of clothes. Look so mature, dude..
Do really excited when gave you that bouquet. You're the only guy I ever gave that kind of things..

Happy graduation, bSar, my partner in crime.. I love you as always.. 

Po Pu Porompompo 

Calm down, slow your mind..
Close your eyes and take a breath..
Let God keep you safely tonight..

Enjoy your dream, tighten your rest..
Just say 'thank you' when down like that..
Because you'll know you must be can..
When sun arrive your smile will bright..

Lovely Rainy Night

I don't know, I hate this situation.. but I enjoyed it..

When the night is come replacing the afternoon,
When the wind blow softly through my hair,
When the water fall like tears of the stars,
And when I alone in my lonely mind..

I found you, in the middle of my ignorance.
I don't know where you came from, because I'm sure that you've been leaving me forever.

Is that the power of mind?
Or it's just the power of history?

When I came to this world, and you help me to face this wild world.
Then you force me to be what you want me to be.
And you suddenly leave when you think you may leave me all alone.

Yes I am not fine, I'm sick of this.
Why I always missing you?
Feeling so blue,
In this kind of moment, dude?

But still, maybe it's just a path from God.
Who love both of us.
Even He separate us forever,
I think He still give us a chance to feel each other.

In this kind of night, in this lovely rainy night.

Sebait Penantian Berkah Nya

Subuh, segeralah datang.. Aku lelah menanti fajar merekah..
Mendung, pergilah berlalu.. Aku mau mentari menghangatkanku..
Bintang, tertidurlah lelap.. Aku tak sabar menatapmu nanti malam..
Surya, tataplah aku.. Silaukan rintangan sepanjang waktuku..
Angin, bertiuplah lembut.. Belailah manja kulit tubuhku..
Dan Kau Tuhan, lindungilah aku.. Kuatkan aku menjalani segalanya untuk Mu..

joyeux anniversaire, la mère

"Selamat hari ulang tahun pernikahan.."

Hanya pesan singkat itu saja yang mampu kuketik di layar. Meski sempat meragu, haruskah aku menyampaikan Dan mengucapkan selamat pada yang mungkin tak lagi merayakannya? Ataukah harusku berpaling Dan melupakan niat menguak kenangan masa lalunya? Akhirnya aku dengan angkuh membongkar lagi peristiwa silam miliknya. Meski aku tak tahu pasti bagaimana perasaannya saat membaca pesan singkatku. Aku mencoba acuh atas apa yang akan terjadi padaku maupun padanya nanti.


"Sekarang nggak ada ulang tahun perkawinan dek"

Hanya itu yang mampu dia katakan setelah membiarkanku menunggu dalam ragu selama 600 menit. Tega. Itu bukan waktu yang singkat. Dan pada akhirnya aku hanya mampu tertunduk malu. Bersimpuh tak berdaya dan tak kuasa menahan butiran air yang berhasil meluncur manis dari kedua bola mataku.


#Happy Anniversary my dearest Madre...

Pati, 01012011.2035

This Night Trip is Reminds Me on You 

Perjalanan malam ini membuatku ingat akan janji papa dulu, ngajarin aku nyetir luar kota, nyetir nanjak di pegunungan, nyetir jauh sendirian..

Dulu, temen aku beberapa kali ngajakin aku ke trawas dalam selang waktu yang singkat.. Dia pamer, dulu dia diajarin papanya nyetir disitu.. Tikungan arah pacet yang jalannya nggak banget.. Nanjaknya parah, jalannya ga enak, bahkan dulu dia ngeri dilepas disuru nyetir disitu.. Sekarang nyetirnya dia udah jago, bahkan jadi jagoan kebut-kebutan... 

Trus aku cerita papa, papa langsung bilang,,"ayo sini kuajarin nanti.. Masa papanya dia ajh yg bisa ngajarin".. Sambil ketawa gitu ngomongnya... Ngrasa gamau anaknya dikalahin.. Hehehee

Tapi ternyata semua itu tidak terealisasi... Aku sibuk sendiri akhirnya.. Cari kerja, maen sama temen-temen, banyak lah pokoknya.. Trus akhirnya aq keterima kerja dan harus pergi jauh dari Surabaya..

Ga lama papa sakit.. Aku juga ga pernah pulang.. Tiap mau pulang ga dibolehin.. Pas pulang kondisi papa makin kritis.. Aku coba kasi semangat papa,, hibur papa.. Trus aq ngingetin papa, aku bilang..
"Ayo pa, makan yg banyak.. Diminum obatnya.. Biar sembuh.. Katanya mau ngajarin aq nyetir di trawas?? Aq blom diajarin nyetir nanjak-nanjak loo.. Papa kan janji mau ngajarin nyetir disana.."
Trus papa langsung jawab,, "iya nanti tak ajarin, jangan kuatir.."

Begitu pulang lagi, makin kritislah kondisinya, Dan akhirnya papa ninggalin aq disini sama semua kenangan yang tersisa... Dan janjinya papa ga pernah terealisasi buat aku..
Tapi gapapa pa, meskipun ga diajarin papa, one day aku bakal kesana, mbuktiin kalo aq bisa nyetir disana meskipun sulit.. Ntar aku minta ajarin mbak onna ato mas trie pa.. So be cool Daddy,. I'll take it in my own way.. Your little daughter is tougher than you ever think.. Love you Dad... 