Love Day ^.^*

I'm very curious, I'm curious about everything

Why can't I go to sleep and can only see your face?

I'm curious too, I'm curious about this heart

Why is it that when I see you, laughter comes out first?

When my friends are together and they mention you

Why do I get so excited and want to hear more?

If only you are there, I become someone else

And I make random, awkward jokes

Honestly, this feeling is so strange

Is this what it feels like to be on top of a cloud?

Is it like this, are we like this?

If you feel the same way, have we already started?

I like you very very much

I think I came to love you

I want to say the same thing

But is it okay if I do that?

Should I wait a bit more?

I also like you very very much

Honestly, this is the first time I'm feeling like this

I will wait more

will you wait more?

I will be here 

will you be here?

We are already feeling the same way

What do you like about me? That's what I'm curious about

Since when did I live in your heart?

I'm curious too, I'm curious about your heart

Whether you really like me and not hate me?

There are so many pretty girls

No, No!

So is it true that you really only see me?

Many handsome guys

Who?

are by your side

Where?

So how are you coming to me girl?

Honestly, I keep imagining us

This kind of feeling is so suspicious

Underneath the same sky

Underneath the same sky

We're thinking the same thoughts

I think we can say the same things too

I like you very very much

I think I came to love you

I want to say the same thing

But is it okay if I do that?

Should I wait a bit more?

I also like you very very much

Honestly, this is the first time I'm feeling like this

I will wait more

will you wait more?

I will be here 

will you be here?

We are already feeling the same way

Who likes who more? Do I like you more?

That's not important to me

If I extend my hand, will you never let go?

I won't let go of your hand forever

I like you very very much

Honestly, I already love you

I can say the same thing but,

Why do I keep shaking? Why am I keep hesitating?

No I love you, You!

Now I will tell you everything of my heart

Will you believe in me

I'll believe in you

In my love

In this love

Let's walk together side by side

The two of us

Happy for you, the best friend of mine. 

Do really happy when I met you. Even it's just for a few of seconds..
Do really proud saw you in those kind of clothes. Look so mature, dude..
Do really excited when gave you that bouquet. You're the only guy I ever gave that kind of things..

Happy graduation, bSar, my partner in crime.. I love you as always.. 

Po Pu Porompompo 

Calm down, slow your mind..
Close your eyes and take a breath..
Let God keep you safely tonight..

Enjoy your dream, tighten your rest..
Just say 'thank you' when down like that..
Because you'll know you must be can..
When sun arrive your smile will bright..

Lovely Rainy Night

I don't know, I hate this situation.. but I enjoyed it..

When the night is come replacing the afternoon,
When the wind blow softly through my hair,
When the water fall like tears of the stars,
And when I alone in my lonely mind..

I found you, in the middle of my ignorance.
I don't know where you came from, because I'm sure that you've been leaving me forever.

Is that the power of mind?
Or it's just the power of history?

When I came to this world, and you help me to face this wild world.
Then you force me to be what you want me to be.
And you suddenly leave when you think you may leave me all alone.

Yes I am not fine, I'm sick of this.
Why I always missing you?
Feeling so blue,
In this kind of moment, dude?

But still, maybe it's just a path from God.
Who love both of us.
Even He separate us forever,
I think He still give us a chance to feel each other.

In this kind of night, in this lovely rainy night.

Sebait Penantian Berkah Nya

Subuh, segeralah datang.. Aku lelah menanti fajar merekah..
Mendung, pergilah berlalu.. Aku mau mentari menghangatkanku..
Bintang, tertidurlah lelap.. Aku tak sabar menatapmu nanti malam..
Surya, tataplah aku.. Silaukan rintangan sepanjang waktuku..
Angin, bertiuplah lembut.. Belailah manja kulit tubuhku..
Dan Kau Tuhan, lindungilah aku.. Kuatkan aku menjalani segalanya untuk Mu..

joyeux anniversaire, la mère

"Selamat hari ulang tahun pernikahan.."

Hanya pesan singkat itu saja yang mampu kuketik di layar. Meski sempat meragu, haruskah aku menyampaikan Dan mengucapkan selamat pada yang mungkin tak lagi merayakannya? Ataukah harusku berpaling Dan melupakan niat menguak kenangan masa lalunya? Akhirnya aku dengan angkuh membongkar lagi peristiwa silam miliknya. Meski aku tak tahu pasti bagaimana perasaannya saat membaca pesan singkatku. Aku mencoba acuh atas apa yang akan terjadi padaku maupun padanya nanti.


"Sekarang nggak ada ulang tahun perkawinan dek"

Hanya itu yang mampu dia katakan setelah membiarkanku menunggu dalam ragu selama 600 menit. Tega. Itu bukan waktu yang singkat. Dan pada akhirnya aku hanya mampu tertunduk malu. Bersimpuh tak berdaya dan tak kuasa menahan butiran air yang berhasil meluncur manis dari kedua bola mataku.


#Happy Anniversary my dearest Madre...

Pati, 01012011.2035

This Night Trip is Reminds Me on You 

Perjalanan malam ini membuatku ingat akan janji papa dulu, ngajarin aku nyetir luar kota, nyetir nanjak di pegunungan, nyetir jauh sendirian..

Dulu, temen aku beberapa kali ngajakin aku ke trawas dalam selang waktu yang singkat.. Dia pamer, dulu dia diajarin papanya nyetir disitu.. Tikungan arah pacet yang jalannya nggak banget.. Nanjaknya parah, jalannya ga enak, bahkan dulu dia ngeri dilepas disuru nyetir disitu.. Sekarang nyetirnya dia udah jago, bahkan jadi jagoan kebut-kebutan... 

Trus aku cerita papa, papa langsung bilang,,"ayo sini kuajarin nanti.. Masa papanya dia ajh yg bisa ngajarin".. Sambil ketawa gitu ngomongnya... Ngrasa gamau anaknya dikalahin.. Hehehee

Tapi ternyata semua itu tidak terealisasi... Aku sibuk sendiri akhirnya.. Cari kerja, maen sama temen-temen, banyak lah pokoknya.. Trus akhirnya aq keterima kerja dan harus pergi jauh dari Surabaya..

Ga lama papa sakit.. Aku juga ga pernah pulang.. Tiap mau pulang ga dibolehin.. Pas pulang kondisi papa makin kritis.. Aku coba kasi semangat papa,, hibur papa.. Trus aq ngingetin papa, aku bilang..
"Ayo pa, makan yg banyak.. Diminum obatnya.. Biar sembuh.. Katanya mau ngajarin aq nyetir di trawas?? Aq blom diajarin nyetir nanjak-nanjak loo.. Papa kan janji mau ngajarin nyetir disana.."
Trus papa langsung jawab,, "iya nanti tak ajarin, jangan kuatir.."

Begitu pulang lagi, makin kritislah kondisinya, Dan akhirnya papa ninggalin aq disini sama semua kenangan yang tersisa... Dan janjinya papa ga pernah terealisasi buat aku..
Tapi gapapa pa, meskipun ga diajarin papa, one day aku bakal kesana, mbuktiin kalo aq bisa nyetir disana meskipun sulit.. Ntar aku minta ajarin mbak onna ato mas trie pa.. So be cool Daddy,. I'll take it in my own way.. Your little daughter is tougher than you ever think.. Love you Dad... 

Hate it but 

Believe it or not,

I hate being here, 
Because there's a friend which is so annoying.. Another one is care too much.. The others are so selfish... 

But I love being here, 
Because I found some friends which are loving me a lot.. Care enough with me.. And always there when I need them...


Believe it or not,

I hate being here, 
Because my family is so far away from here.. Because my mom is alone there.. And I left my bestfriend while our relationship was not good... 

But I love being here, 
Because my Jojo is always take a good care of me when I'm asleep.. Chiyoo Bebbo and Miyoo are always fulfill my days.. And my little green book is always be there when I need it... 


Believe it or not,

I hate being here, 
Because there's a woman who always complaining my style.. There's some people who talk behind me.. And some other are always annoy my relationship with the boys here... 

But I love being here, 
Because I have some friends with them I can having some fun.. I have a guy who always there to drop and pick me up.. And another one is always care about me even he used to keep his cares in silent.. He just show it in what he do.. I adore him... 


So... Even I hate being here, I think I love it more... Enjoy being here, and won't go anywhere again...
I like Pati, bumi Mina tani... I love being here, silent city... 

First weekend part 2

Sunday, 091011..
Early wake up in the morning.. Have a chicken porridge for my breakfast, delivery service from my workmate.. Hehe., thank you abang..
Start to finished my 'Karena Cinta itu Sempurna, by Indi'.. And enjoy the cloudy day..
Sun is not shine so hard that day.. 
Nice wind blow my face when I enjoy that weather in front of my room and read my novel.. Great day to refresh my mind.. 
After I finished my novel, I take some rest.. Sleeping in the mid day is the things I used to do when I have no work yet.. Really love it!!!

At 4 o'clock my friends pick me up to grand opening of our new office in Juwana.. Half an hour for the ride and we thanks to God for that grand opening.. Alhamdulillah everything is doing well there.. We read Yasin together and have a nice dinner.. Meat, chicken, and seafood are prepared for us.. Really enjoy that dinner.. 

After that, we going back to Pati.. Mas Dodi ask us to enjoy 'ginger milk' in 'Angkringan'.. I don't like in ginger actually, but I agreed him and go to 'angkringan' together.. They drink hot ginger milk.. But I more interested in cold one.. Ice ginger milk.. Not bad I think.. We shared about a lot of things there..

And the night is coming.. 
We dropped in our home, and take a rest because Monday is coming out and almost facing us.. Hahahaa..

That's a pretty long story about my weekend in Pati.. Fun enough, but I think next week I have to heading Surabaya again.. I miss my mom and daddy.. Hehehehee.. 

First weekend part1

My first weekend at Pati is not too bad.. Having some fun here.. Check my activities this weekend..

Saturday, 081011
Wake up early in the morning.. Earlier than I used to waking up in my weekdays.. 5 o'clock, and start to enjoy Saturday morning here.. Playing with my Chiyoo and Bebbo, made my own healthy breakfast (Quaker oats with choco milk), read my thin novel 'Karena Cinta itu Sempurna, by Indi', and then try to start cleaning up my own room..
I washed my clothes first.. Give it the chemical liquid which will make my clothes smells good.. Next I dried my clothes and give it a little sun shine.. Then I start to sweep my room.. Rearrange my table, bags, and cupboards.. After that, I change my bed cover.. I have to fix my bed first because the woods is not putted into the place they have to.. It takes time, and a lot of energy..
I swept my room again, and then swab that room.. Clean enough.. Fresh enough..
Take a long time for a bath would be nice I think.. But I didn't have enough energy to do that.. I'm too tired.. So I cleaning up myself, take a normal bath, and plan to sleep.. But I can't!! I don't know why I can't sleep at that time.. Too tired maybe, I don't know.. I just feel hungry.. I ask my friend to take me somewhere for a very late lunch.. But he take me to short trip to waduk gunungrawa.. The scenery was great.. But I still hungry.. I have to eat something before I falling down.. But there's nothing to eat!! Just an instant noodle.. So I surrender and eat a bowl of instant noodle and a banana.. Poor me..
When the sun is going down, I go to my home.. I saw a cute cotton candies in my turn.. I bought it one, and enjoy that cute cotton candy by myself..

• • •

Goodbye Daddy, we'll prove that we can be as best as u wish

This morning, when i was going to my office, I read bbm status of my friend.. She said 'my deepest condolence to Steve Jobs'.. And I'm shocked.. He's gone?? Hard to believe it... 

Then I googling it.. Google said that Steve's death is caused by cancer.. Pancreas cancer.. At that time i remember someone.. He's so meaningfull for me.. It reminds me to my beloved Father, Tri Asmono..

I just adopted Chiyoo, my white iPhone4, a month ago.. And now, i think she's just like me.. Dad-less..

We're both just like a little girl, who missing love from our father... We're lost them because of that kind of disease, cancer... And ours still in 50's, not more...

Goodbye our beloved Daddy, Steve Jobs and Tri Asmono.. I wish you both may rest in peace.. We'll prove that we can be as best as you wish, insya Allah..
Your beloved daughters, 
• Chiyoo N. Jobs & Karina A. Auberta •

Kamis Manis :)

Kamis inii maniiisss bangeett... Seru dehh.. Hot sweet tea buat buka puasa, dibikinin sama mas ucup..

Buka puasa di nirwana sama idho rianti mas dodi yg makanannya yummy gilaak.. 

Trus menggila di tempat karaoke yg aneh.. Pada keluar deh aslinya.. Hahahaa 

Wish got more fun tomorrow.. Surabaya I'll come again...

Dan rencana pun tinggal rencana

Akhirnya saya nggak jadi menikmati indahnya weekend di Kota kecil itu, Pati.. Iyaaah, untuk yg kesekian kalinya saya pulang ke Kota.. Hehehee.. Emang anak rumahan.. 

Minggu ini saya pulang, dengan beberapa kesepakatan kecil yg terjadi akhirnya memutuskan untuk pulang..hwehehe
Emang kok selalu ajh Ada alasan buat pulang ke Surabaya..

So..Surabaya here I come..

O J T is D O N E 

Finally abis presentasi terakhir ojt.. Yee seneng.. Abis gini evalap, asiik semakin dekat dengan pegawai tetap.. Tapi sediih gara2 uda ga dapet lagi kucuran dana tambahan..*baca uang makan dan kosan..

Gatau kudu seneng atau sedih.. Gatau presentasinya kayak apa tadi.. Gatau nilainya bagus atau enggak.. Yg penting kedepannya ajh laa..

Semoga bisa lebih baek lagi kedepannya.. Semoga evalapnya lancar jaya.. Semoga penempatan juga lancar.. Semoga semuanya baik2 sajaa.. Termasuk banyak rejeki dan lancar jodoh.. Aamiin ya Allah.. 

A Peacefull City Called Pati

Pati, 14.09.2011
Starting blogging again,gara-gara udah nemu aplikasi buat ngeblog via smartphone.. Alhamdulillah yaa..*gaya mbak syahrini..

Now i'm in Pati..a small city with full of peacefulness..maksudnya sepi, beneran sepi..denotasi...jam 7 sampe ajh ibu kosnya uda nanya, kok malem?hiyaaa..di surabaya mah saya tiap hari sampe rumah jam 9 minim..

Uda hidup disini almost a month,.Tapi selama itu blom pernah wikenan disini..selalu pulang ke kota..bukannya apa, emang ada perlu sii.. Ada rejeki juga alhamdulillah, dikasi sehat sama cukup ongkos buat pulang..hehe 

This weekend will be my very first time..bakal ngapain ya? Mau jelajah juga ga punya kendaraan..•somebody please..haha..
Can't wait for this weekend..semoga menyenangkan, semoga jadi bisa menikmati indahnya kota kecil, dan semoga mamah n semuanya yg dirumah ga kangen sama aq jadi aq ga dipaksa pulang lagi.. ahahaa

*crazy little thing i called . . . .

Sumpah saya geli banget baca chat kita waktu dulu..
Gimana ya, rasanya ga bisa diungkapin pake kata-kata..
Geli campur jijik campur aneh campur,,,yah pokoknya campur-campur..
Sampe saya ga berani baca chat nya sampe abis..
Pengen ketawa sendiri, najis najis gimana gitu rasanya..
wkwkwkwkkw...:D :D :D

Benernya chat kita biasa sii,,isinya juga standard..
Yang bikin ga standard nii..
Dirimu ya, sedikit berlebihan dan mendramatisir hal-hal yang tidak diperlukan..
Diriku, menanggapi dan menganggap itu suatu hal yang bisa dibilang istimewa dan khusus diperuntukkan padaku..
And it sucks..because it's too fake to both of us...
hahahaahaha..

Sekali lagi kalo dibayangin itu menggelikan,.
Teramat sangat menggelikan...
Oh God, beruntunglah saya sudah disadarkan dari hal-hal aneh yang ga penting dan merugikan itu..
Cukup lah pengalaman biar ga jadi orang aneh lagi kayak pas itu..
*crazy little things i called, humm,,i'm not sure..i just sure that it's not love..;)
hahahhaaa..

Happy New Year 2011 *\(^.^')/*

Tahun baru pertama di Jakarta,.
Ga ngapa2in cuma nangkring di kos aja sendirian,.
Diajakin ke Grand Indonesia sama temen2, tapi uda males duluan,.
Actually, saya emang ga doyan tahun baru hedon keluar,.
Yakin 100% jalanan pasti macet,.
Suda gitu pusing denger hingar bingar terompet petasan kembang api dan saudara2nya,.
Trus, menurut saya ga ada esensinya seneng2 di akhir taun,.
Saya lebih seneng diem di rumah, nontonin film di tv yang pasti bagus2,.
Trus merenungi taun sebelumnya sambil minta maav n berdoa sama Tuhan buat kebaikan kedepannya,.
So, it's not a big deal when i have to spend my New Years Eve all by my self,.

Tapi taun ini beda,.
Pas suda bersih badan, sedikit sebel karna jaringan hp n modem mbambet, akhirnya memutuskan untuk tidur,.
Ga lama kemudian, "pletak pletok duaaarr, daaarrr",.
Berasa di kelilingi mesin pembuat popcorn,.
Astagaa, rame banget suaranya,.
Pusing saya dengernya, belom jam 12 ini, masi lama taun barunya,.
Akhirnya ga bisa tidur, dan karena penasaran, dibuatlah saya keluar menuju balkon,.

"Pletak pletaaak, byaaarrr"
'Waaaaaahhh'
Saya terpukau, ternganga,.
Iya, sungguh, saya kagum banget jadinya,.
Kembang api meluncur dari seluruh penjuru,.
Jenisnya juga macem2, apalagi warnanya,.
Dari merah, kuning, orange, ijo, biru, sampe ungu ada juga,.
Bener2 ngerasa 'wuaaaw' lah saya,.
Tiba-tiba berasa jadi anak desa yang ga pernah liat kembang api,.
Padahal di Surabaya juga banyak,.
Tapi bener loo, perasaan di Surabaya ga gitu-gitu amat,.
Apa karna saya ga pernah melanglang buana ya kalo taun baru??hahaha
Ini kayak langit jadi full sama yang namanya percikan bunga api,.
Amazing banget, bagus banget, dan saya menikmati banget,.

Ga lama kemudian, ada yang melintas dalam pikiran saya,.
Apa gini ya caranya orang Jakarta menikmati taun baru??
Mengorbankan uang dan waktu nya untuk menebus kepenatan selama bekerja,.
Mungkin sebagian orang (termasuk saya) berfikir,
"hey, ini namanya selebrasi berlebihan"
"buat apa sih buang2 uang cuma buat begini?"
"kembang api dan asapnya tu pengaruh ke ozon dan lingkungan ga sih?"
"kalo ngaruh kan jahat banget berarti, ngotorin lingkungan cuma buat seneng2"

Tapi lama2 saya juga mikir,
Itu hak mereka, itu ekspresi kebahagiaan dan harapan mereka,.
Sapa gw ngelarang2 orang ngapa2in,.
Pasti penat kerja di ibukota yang tiap hari ketemu maceeeet mulu,.
Pasti capek ngadepin target yang makin hari makin naik,.
Blum lagi waktu yang kudu abis di jalanan,.
Yah semoga aja disamping merayakan dengan penuh kebahagiaan, semuanya masi bisa manfaatin momen taun baru,.
Semoga semua masi bisa merenungi apa yang uda dilakuin setaun kebelakang,.
Target2 yang belum tercapai, doa2 yang belum terjawab, ato bahkan perbuatan2 yang sebetulnya absolut salah,.
Trus akhirnya minta maav sama Tuhan,.
Minta maav kan berarti 'tidak mengulangi dan berusaha memperbaiki',.
Jadi paling ga kita punya niat buat berubah jadi orang yang much more better,.
hahahaha,.semoga taun ini kita jadi lebih baek ajah laa intinya,.


Happy New Year everybody,.
Welcome 2011,.
GBU All,. (^.^*)

the winner of life

pemenang kehidupan adalah orang

yang tetap sejuk ditempat yang panas,

yang tetap manis ditempat yang begitu pahit,

yang tetap merasa kecil meskipun telah menjadi besar, dan

yang tetap tenang ditengah badai yang paling dahsyat, serta

yang tetap mengandalkan Tuhan dalam segala perkara



#repost

#gundahgulanagalaurisau,.yuppie beybb,i'm not fine,i'm in pain...:|

Malam ini mellow,.
Malam ini galau,.
Uda pengen netes aja ini air matanya,.
Kenapo sayang??kenapo???
Bukan karena kerjaan,.
Bukan karena abis kecopetan,.
Tapi karena sadar ada yang mau hilang,.
Muncul lagi dunk perasaan kayak gini,.
Berkelebat semua memori yang ada,.
Apalagi didukung sama semua backsound dan heningnya malam,.
Manteb dah benernya kalo mau mewek..
Humm Tuhan, tenangkanlah jiwa saya,.
Hahahaaa,.
*post geje*

Get Back in My Life !!!!

You are relentless, I am defenseless...
Why did you knock me down tonight??
You beat me senseless, I just don’t get this...
How many times do I have to try??

Your whisper so clear, the world disappears..
As I fall into the darkness, it's impossible to express..
How good it feels, I’m wrapped up, I’m sealed..
So tired I’ll never be free all night, don’t fight the feeling..

Get back in my life, come knock on my door..
You’re what I’m looking for, I think you should know..
You’ve started a fire, burned me to the floor..
Please don’t resist anymore, I’ll never leave you alone..

Don’t reprimand me, you’re so demanding..
But I’ve got time, I don’t mind at all..
You’re picture perfect, completely worth it..
You’ve got my back against the wall..

And can you hear me calling??
I’m screaming, scratching, crawling..
You ignore me cause I’m always coming back to you..

And you know how much I miss it..

And you know I cant resist it..
See your lips and just come running right on back to you..